This Particular Now

This,

Right now,

Is what I want.

Always.

I want the smell of theatre mingling with sunset,

I want the infinite days and the starry nights.

I want the pain that comes with laughing this hard,
with feeling this much.

I want all of it.  

I want the nostalgia and the euphoria and the pain and the loss and the love.

I want the memories that drown me, I want the experiences and adventures
 that show and shape and change me.

I want to meet people that I deserve to live within walking distance of.  

I want it to be more of a blessing than a curse to feel this much.

I want to always have this golden iridescent lense that I see through,
 I want everything to be singed with light.

I want to learn to embrace the night and encircle the stars.

I want my everything to always feel like the thud of the bass
 through my chest,

the feeling that I know can't last forever, the one that is best felt
 with a heavy dose of starlight.

This,

This particular now,

Is all I want,

All I need.